I think this is going to be a hard blog to write because I just realized that I have just passed the anniversary of my Dad’s death which was on the 6th of February and that his birthday is on the 12th of February he would be 99 years old. WOW!!! Talking about burying the lead that did it for me. I have been without him for a long time, but I have learned to live with it no matter how hard it got because I always had others to pick up the slack and never felt that I was missing his love because of the others who help make up for not having a father. I knew that he loved me, and others did the Father-daughter things or my first dance thing or whatever was needed. Don’t get me wrong I missed my Dad I still do miss my Dad as old as I am now, but I never wanted for a Dad because I always had some cousin, uncle, grandpa, or other male relatives to fill the slot if I need something done. I am forever appreciative of all male relatives who filled in throughout the years without never complaining when I am so sure you could have found something better to do than go to a function with me. Thanks so much.
I know that I tell you all the time about you who have your Mom or Dad still alive and in good health that you are so lucky and that I wish I could have just one more hug from my Dad or Mom at this stage in my life I would be so happy, and I would be. But I have a friend and she knows who she is I am beginning to think that even though she still has her Mom she isn’t so lucky because she doesn’t know her, doesn’t remember her life and I have thought long and hard on that situation and I am positive if my Mom or Dad were still alive and living in that situation they wouldn’t be happy nor would they want to be alive. I think I am just being selfish because I would like them in any kind of a way because anyway is better than no way. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t miss them think of them, but I know neither of them is in pain, so I suppose they might be in a better place than some of us, but still it doesn’t stop the missing or wishing for just one more I love you or one more hug to make it last until we meet again.
There are few people who complain about their parents did this or did that and how they don’t like it. Well, get a job move out stop complaining be thankful that you have your parents around to piss you off and do things you don’t like to be thankful they care enough to piss you off. So, I would like mine around just again to piss me off enough that we can have our fights and I can get grounded in my room I would love it. So, stop complaining about them be thankful that you still have them because I can guarantee that someday they will not be there. God will call them home and they won’t be here on earth. I know this might be a wake up call it isn’t meant to be I have heard so much lately about someone’s parents didn’t let them drink any booze well gee how old are you anyway 16 years old, wait in 5 years you can drink but if you live at home you such obey your parents rules they have your best interest at heart most of the time. They do love you.
Mom and Dad where ever you are I hope after all this time you are together and happy. I Love You both and Miss you more than I can ever say. Thank you for what you tried to do for me even if I did make a mess of it. I am thankful for both of your love and I am thankful to have been raised in a house where I knew what love was. It was harder Mom for you after Daddy died and I am sure us kids didn’t make it any easier, but I am still glad that we had you both at least for a short time. God bless you.
Happy Birthday Dad 99 years young that is a milestone here on earth we would have celebrated!!! Now you can celebrate with Mom and all who came after!!!!!! LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!