Hi Mom,

It’s Labor Day weekend Tuesday you have been gone from our lives 17 years but you are not forgotten.  You are still well-loved as well.  I don’t believe there is day that goes by that I still don’t wish that you are still here with us and still telling us what we have missed or what we all need to be doing to make things better somehow.  You will probably laugh when I tell you this but I honestly think that Mark is never going to retire from the paper because they still need him even now.  Or maybe it’s that he needs them more then they need him who knows the reason.

I wonder each time I write something to you what I can say or do that might be a little different than the time before.  I don’t find any trouble writing things to you but I find myself wondering what type of answers I might receive from you.  It is so interesting when I stop to think about you I sometimes come away with a kind of abstract kind of picture of my life with you and now without you I suppose much like I do when I picture myself with and without Carl.  I want you to know Mom that I am happy and that all is good.  Mark and I are fine.  I’m not sure about Chris I haven’t seen him in for number of years not because I don’t want to see him but because he doesn’t come around.   I wonder about him a lot but until he makes himself known I can only continue has I am and continue to wonder.

Mom I just want to have a small chat to let you know I was thinking about you but I am sure you know I always am.  I wish with all my heart that I had more time with you than I did but then you would have suffered more than you already had I couldn’t have stood that so I would rather miss you like I do than watch you suffer more than you did.

Give my love to all who have gone before me.  Find JJ Mom and give him a big hug for me and tell him that I miss him lots and that I am so sorry I missed telling him goodbye but he is still in my thoughts a lot and he was the best friend a girl could have.

Mom remember that you are loved and missed.  I will be seeing you someday and then I will put my arms around you and give you the best hug and tell you that somewhere along the way all those things you told me have come to past and you were right.  Yes, I am saying you were right but don’t hold that against me.  Take care of yourself and thank you for all you did in the end it was the right thing to do.

Love your daughter,



Mother’s Day May 2017

With Mother’s Day coming and Mom’s birthday passing a couple of months back she has been on my mind a lot lately.   I’m not sure it is because she will be gone for 17 years come this September or if she would have been celebrating her 84 birthday this past March or then it again it could be that it is just another Mother’s Day without her.  But either way she is indeed on my mind.  I suppose here lately she has been there a lot.

But anyone who has a Mom whether she still be here with us or has gone to live in heaven this time of year our Mom’s are in our thoughts because of May and us celebrating Mother’s Day all over the world.  It was started in the early 20th century when Anna Jarvis wanted to honor all Mothers and motherhood.  While not all countries celebrate Mother’s Day it is hosted in about forty countries around the world.

In retrospect you really only have one Mother and it is nice to let her know how special she is to you and to thank her for all the things she has taught, her unconditional love and most of life she as given you.  She is the light at the end of your tunnel when you just want that much needed hug or a kiss on the forehead when you’re not feeling your best.  Sometimes we get lucky and we have a Mom would is always there through thick and thin.

Motherhood is an honorable job and for those of have it is a wonderful and sometimes trying occupation but it is also a very loving one.  At times it can be routine but never boring,  it can even be thankless at times when you are at your wits end but there is always love and you often wonder if your children are on the same page as you but you know beyond a doubt in your mind that you would NEVER change a thing because changing one thing would change it all.

So Mom I want to thank you for all you did my brothers and sisters I know that you loved us.  I also want to say that there a day doesn’t pass by that I don’t want to pick up the phone to call you to tell you something or ask you a question about something but most importantly just to say I love you, I miss you but most of all thank you for all the years you were there to raise me and care for me.

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO ALL YOU MOMS OUT THERE IN CYBERSPACE  May you all have a wonderful day and I hope that your children remembers to tell you!!!!




Hello Millisa,

This is sort of a letter of goodbye to you since I didn’t get to say goodbye the standard way.  First let me tell you will be missed by so many people and that we all love you and are trying to understand WHY it had to be this way.  God has got you through so many tough spots before and you have always taken the hard road before.  Maybe this is the hard road for you and you are doing what is best for all concerned.  If that is so then we are here to live on without you because that is the way it has to be.  It will be hard not to be able to pick up the phone and call you or go on Facebook and message you so that when you get home in the morning to IM me back.

You were the best friend a girl could ever have and I was so thankful to have known you.  Even though I was older I wasn’t always wiser you taught me how to laugh at myself and know that life sometime just isn’t always what it is cracked up to be but it can still be fun. When we played pool we played pool on the same league and we played pool against each other it was so much more fun to play on the same team then play opposite each other.  I think it was because we have to work harder when we played on different teams.

I remember the day you called me to tell me that Bobby died it was hard on both of us but we got through and here it one year later I am writing this note to tell you goodbye I’m not sure I can get through this without you my friend but I’m going to try.  You have your religion to get you through most of your sorrows but the one that was the hardest was your Mom and we talked about this I know you missed her every day.  Well now my friend you can get a hug and tell her that you never stopped loving her and find the peace you couldn’t find here.

Millisa I’m sitting here writing this trying to understanding all of it and it’s hard but you have been in my past, you have been in my present but you won’t be in my future except in my thoughts, prayers and memories but what memories they will be we had some great times.  I will miss you and I will love you forever.  You always seem to know when I needed you when we talked you told me so much why didn’t you tell me what was going on in your mind so we could have talked about?  We have always talked about so many other thinks out before why not then.  Where you afraid that I might have told you something that would have changed the out come of what happened?  Well Hon we can’t second guess it now can we.  I love you and I hope that you are at peace finally.  RIP my friend you are going to be missed by all who love you here on earth.

Love Kat  ❤




Abandon House by Alex Markovich

The Abandon House photo is shot by my good friend and fellow photography Alex Markovich who was kind enough to allow me to use his shot in my story which has nothing whatsoever to do with the picture except it gave me the inspiration I needed to write the story I was needing to write.  So thank you so much my friend.

It all begin on a crisp walk in mid-September I happened across this old building I couldn’t see a lot of it because of the grown bushes surrounding the place but I could see that at one time it was loved even cared for.  So became my love affair with a an abandon house.  The very first thing of course was to see how to clear it so I could get to it so I could see more of the condition of it but of course I needed to see if there was any owner or if I could buy it for back taxes or something because now I needed to have it for myself.  Strange you say well why would you think that because I have gone bonkers over a house in goodness knows what shape and more or less hasn’t seen the sun in way too long.

After standing a few more minutes thinking about all the things I needed to do in order to become an owner of this property I sat out for the house I was currently renting and not really enjoying because it had never given me the thrill of seeing the abandoned house after two seconds in sight of it.  I wonder why is that could it be the thrill of owning something or is there something about this house that gives me the bust I needed to start doing something more.

Call the property annex people seems the only living heir to the property I want hasn’t paid his/her taxes in a lot of years and is in retirement center which unless you’re family and/or a lawyer which I am the lawyer not family I won’t be able to see him/her however the catch to that is I need to be his/her lawyer which I’m not so not I need to get in touch with the attorney of record to see what I can do about seeing this person about their property before someone else decide they want to outsmart me and get it for themselves.

The lawyer’s name is Franklin D. Smithfield interesting name to say the least but let’s see if I can get some business done with him.  I made an appointment with the keeper of the keys because believe me when I say I felt like I was requesting a interview with the king she was a hard sell to get an appointment to talk business on the subject of the property.  But I do have an appointment.  For one week will probably be the longest week of my life.  On the day of the appointment of course I had to be in court and the judge of all days for him to decide that lunch could wait for one hour today was the day.  I asked for a fifteen minute recess when the judge glazed down at me to reply “is it that important?” yes your honor I need to call to extend an appointment which was happening during lunch that doesn’t seem to happening now until later.  So I got my recess which I call to tell her I was going to be late and that I was in court but I would get there she was a little short with me but she understood and stated she would tell Mr. Smithfield I was in court and I would be along when the judge let us out.

Finally when everything was said and done I ended up being only three hours late for my appointment I would say that was good on a good day.  LOL  The judge got his way on ended the case I was working on I just hope things go my way on the abandon house.  Mr. Smithfield turned out to be nothing like what I thought he might be including the fact Franklin wasn’t Franklin but Franklynn as in a woman.  Not that I’m such a guy but no wonder the keeper of the keys was so hard pressed about the appointment I kept calling her a him when she wasn’t a him at all.  Now to the matter at hand she said.  You want the property that has been abandoned over near the old mill creek right.  I said yes that is it.  Well she began do you know anything about it.  I told her what I did know and what I did want to know but better yet what I wanted to do with it.  She thought for a moment and then picked up the phone, Marylee I need you to pull the property on Old Mill Creek Road along with the information you have on it’s owner my Grandpop too thanks.  I was stunned when she said Grandpop because I was told no other heirs and here was one sitting in front of me.   After Marylee came in dropped off all paperwork requested she turned her hazel eyes on me and smile a truly remarkable smile asked me why I was looking like I didn’t know what to say.  My reply was are you really the owners granddaughter she said yes I am.  So how did you get the name Franklynn I was name after my Grandpop and I took over his office as a lawyer I never changed anything on the stationary except the spelling of the first name.  I even got his Admin Marylee so you could say I inherited everything but the property isn’t mine yet Grandpop is still alive and kicking he is just having some major issues.  You have explained that you want to restore the house and bring it back do you really mean that or is that just someway to get your hands on the property and build condos out there on that great piece of land.  I looked at her and told her I want the property I want to restore it and then I want to live there forever if I could.

Okay how much are you willing to pay for the said property in the condition the house is in now.  I don’t know was my reply I would really like to see a lot more of it besides the scrubs which are hiding the house.  Once I see and have an builder come out to do an estimate of how much work I’m looking at then I can give you a better understanding of what I want to offer.  How about if I give you an appraisal of what it was worth just about 6 months ago when I went out there to look at it and get a few things square in my head.  Plus this is the guy who did the appraisal if you want to give him a call to see if he can tell you how he came to that conclusion on the price.  Also he is a architect who was was willing to help me put it back the way it once was.  Here is also copies of the blueprints that I will loan you so that you can see something of what is there and what could be there again.

Why are you doing this?  Because I love the old building and I don’t want developers to come in tear it down and put condos up and then ruin the feel of the place.   Well then why don’t you restore it and love it more it is to my way of thinking that you love the property you could do what I might get a chance to do also.  She smiled but I don’t think I will ever love it like you do I believe that my Grandpop would love you to buy the cottage, land do with it what you think is best for it because like us you would NEVER let anyone turn it into condos.  I also believe you would live on the land to help it become in the present what it once was in the past.  Am I not correct she asked me. I looked at her and said you are correct in all your understand.   Thank you but I really would like a landscape guy come out and clear the mess around the house so I can get a good look around, meet with the architect see what he recommends and really get the feel for the property.  If what I’m feeling now I’m still feeling when I’m through I would love to meet your Grandpop even if he doesn’t know that I’m there to get a feel for him too then I will give you the best decision I can and the best price I feel that it is worth.

About a month after everything was said and done the deal was closed everyone was happy, the property was now mine which I will be forever happy that the landscape is cleared, flowers have been planted, window boxes will go onto the outside of the windows, the inside is getting a new lease on life and Franklin and Franklynn are both in heaven as well with how well everything is going.  Franklynn came out to check out the new changes inside of the house with new floors, windows, a modern kitchen, bathrooms and even a new pool will be happening as soon as the inside is finished.  Best of all I have just about got Franklynn talked into having a life with me for which I’m sure her Grandpop is happy for that all on it’s on.

Now the property when I walk past not only grasp me by the heart but I remember my shaky beginning and am very thankful that someone up there was looking out for Franklynn, Franklin, the wonderful property on Old Mill Creek Road and last but not least me.