It’s Labor Day weekend Tuesday you have been gone from our lives 17 years but you are not forgotten. You are still well-loved as well. I don’t believe there is day that goes by that I still don’t wish that you are still here with us and still telling us what we have missed or what we all need to be doing to make things better somehow. You will probably laugh when I tell you this but I honestly think that Mark is never going to retire from the paper because they still need him even now. Or maybe it’s that he needs them more then they need him who knows the reason.
I wonder each time I write something to you what I can say or do that might be a little different than the time before. I don’t find any trouble writing things to you but I find myself wondering what type of answers I might receive from you. It is so interesting when I stop to think about you I sometimes come away with a kind of abstract kind of picture of my life with you and now without you I suppose much like I do when I picture myself with and without Carl. I want you to know Mom that I am happy and that all is good. Mark and I are fine. I’m not sure about Chris I haven’t seen him in for number of years not because I don’t want to see him but because he doesn’t come around. I wonder about him a lot but until he makes himself known I can only continue has I am and continue to wonder.
Mom I just want to have a small chat to let you know I was thinking about you but I am sure you know I always am. I wish with all my heart that I had more time with you than I did but then you would have suffered more than you already had I couldn’t have stood that so I would rather miss you like I do than watch you suffer more than you did.
Give my love to all who have gone before me. Find JJ Mom and give him a big hug for me and tell him that I miss him lots and that I am so sorry I missed telling him goodbye but he is still in my thoughts a lot and he was the best friend a girl could have.
Mom remember that you are loved and missed. I will be seeing you someday and then I will put my arms around you and give you the best hug and tell you that somewhere along the way all those things you told me have come to past and you were right. Yes, I am saying you were right but don’t hold that against me. Take care of yourself and thank you for all you did in the end it was the right thing to do.
Love your daughter,